Today, on the F train, there was a man with a bike and a basket and a box. The box was in the basket and the basket on the front of the bike. In the box? A bird. It was curious. I'm hoping he was rescuing the bird? Needless to say, I was freaked out. I have a fear of birds which has been slowly cured by living in New York City, however I will never ever ever be able to deal with birds indoors. Not okay. I had to get up and move. I'm a total loser.
New thought: What should I do what should I do what should I do?
Let me tell you, this question has been haunting me for years. Singing or flute? Songwriting or classical? Joni Mitchell or Emmanuel Pahud? (grrrar, I know). Everyone who doesn't understand tells me to do both. But it's not that easy. In order to play flute, I need to practice consistently and a lot. That means coming home from a full day of work and playing my instrument for a couple of hours. Leading a band takes just as much time. Getting gigs, setting up rehearsals, practicing and writing new music that people will actually like... pressure!
I know I want to go back to school. I know I don't have time/money to go back to school for about two years. I know that in order to go back to school I need to practice and audition and try to get money thrown at me. I know that I love my fiance and my friends a lot and I don't want to neglect them. Soooo, BAH!
This week is especially crazy because I have been gone for two weekends in a row, which means the house is a mess, laundry has piled up, the kitchen cupboards are barren, and I haven't spent a minute of quality time with my sweet man (or friends for that matter)... annnnd on top of the normal activity of keeping up with life, I have my flute lesson, two rehearsals with our new vocalist, one rehearsal with the band and tons of preparation to do for all of it-- all this week.
Oh yeah, and our save the dates need to go out pronto. Martha Stweart says to send destination wedding notices out 9-12 months before your wedding and I totally believe her. We're falling behind, people!! Martha frowns on my wedding.
Vent session over.
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Those are big decisions. It is a big pressure to be so awesome at various things.
So, what do you feel you SHOULD spend lots of time and energy on, and what do you feel you WANT TO spend lots of time and energy on? Are they the same thing? Because the best things in life take discipline and determination and hard work, but no matter what you choose, it should be whatever makes your heart sing.
=) Such a sweet girl...
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